Peaceful Purple

Peace comes at a price, don’t you think?  I mean it involves not only your imagination, but your spiritual, physical, mental and emotional well being.  In fact it filters to every part of your life.

Today I wasn’t being particularly peaceful.  I couldn’t understand what was happening in my body.  The last few days have been brilliant for me, and I knew I wasn’t falling into a full-blown flare up of my fibromyalgia.  Now I am well aware that fibromyalgia encompasses the mind as well as the body.  But that didn’t quite seem to fit.  Or maybe it was the weather, which was rainy and could have accounted for it.

Anyway, after discussing with Kevin what could be wrong, he asked me one simple question – Did you take your tablets this morning?  I immediately said yes of course but then I suddenly remembered that actually I hadn’t.  The morning had started off unusually with Johnathan waking just after 6am.  So we had to get up and start getting ourselves ready for the day and with the change in routine I just hadn’t remembered.

Now a few months/years ago I would have beaten myself up for it mentally.  I would have put the blame firmly on my shoulders and told myself horrible and nasty things.  Now if you want to have peace in your life, this is not the way to get it.

I knew that if I wanted to have peace in today, I would have to stop the self-blaming and condemnation because that doesn’t get you anywhere.  Today is the day where I normally write the blogpost I have in mind.  I had tried 3 different ways of talking about peace without success.

The fact is that when you are in pain and your head feels mushy there is no way you can function at a peaceful level – the only thing you can do is try to mitigate the pain.  Every disabled person has their tried and tested methods to help themselves, but nothing worked for me this morning.

My body is still trying to recover but it is now peaceful in every way while I allow my tablets to do their job and get me out of the pain I had inadvertently put on myself.  My mind, soul, body and emotions are all returning to their usual states and the fact I know the pain will die down is a tremendous and peaceful blessing.

But it doesn’t have to be pain that causes you a problem and it’s incredibly difficult to find that peace.  There could be other things that cause you to lose your peace.  Peace is a wonderful gift and without it you seem to be unable to function.

Do you want peace in your life?  What is out of whack in your life?  It doesn’t have to be just one thing that is causing the problem and making you lose your peace.  There can be one or more.  

Fortunately for me today, there was only overriding fact that was causing my difficulty.  And now that I have taken my tablets, I feel so much better both mentally and emotionally and am calmly waiting for my body to return to where it should be.

Having said all that, peace is something to acquire both in sickness and in health.  Looking at what the problem is and fixing it if you can or knowing a plan of action for dealing with it will help bring peace back into your life.

So how are you going to bring peace back into your life again?

 

I have a Dream – Martin Luther King Jr.


I have a dream. Not the one that Martin Luther King Jnr had, but one of my own. There are so many dreams that you have as a child – some that are almost impossible (like becoming a princess) and others that are more realistic, like becoming a nurse or doctor.

However, childhood dreams do not always come to pass. And sometimes those dreams grow and morph into something else entirely. Does that mean it is wrong to dream as a child? Should you stop your children dreaming? Of course not! Dreams help the creativity side of a child develop and you never know where they could end up in life.

One of my dreams as a child was to be a ballet dancer. We took classes when I was small – can’t remember how old I was, but it was discovered very quickly that I did not possess the co-ordination or the height needed to become one. So that idea I had of myself was never going to come to pass.

I also wanted to have a horse of my own and ride it but that was equally unrealistic. I believe it was in my pre-teen years that I learnt to ride. This I was good at and enjoyed it but again it was not sustainable as a career for me.

You probably had your own ideas of what you wanted to be when you grew up. And probably, like me, a number of different things that were unrealistic in your circumstances or way of life. But that’s ok. We need to have these dreams or visions to help us form our imagination or creative side of our brains.

As you get older, you learn what is possible and probable in your life. You don’t have to stay stagnant in what you do, but can grow and develop yourself as you go through different situations and circumstances.

However, one thing is necessary and many think of it as uncomfortable to mention – you have to mourn or grieve the impossible life you imagined in your youth or young adulthood. People don’t like to talk about it, but it’s a necessary part of learning to accept yourself and your situation as you are.

Now this doesn’t mean that you have to settle for what you have in the present. You can still have a dream or a vision for your future. For many years, I thought my vision was just going to fall in my lap at the right time. But it’s not going to be like that. You have to work at getting it set up so that you will be ready when the time comes for its fruition.

When you have a dream or vision for your future, it needs to be realistic but push you out of your comfort zone. For example, if you say you want to make a million dollars by the end of the year by winning the lottery, it COULD happen but it’s highly unlikely to happen. If you said you wanted to make an extra hundred dollars by doing some extra or different work to your normal job, that is much more realistic and you are capable of achieving it if you plan and work at getting it done.

There is more to life than where you are at time moment. Are you going to prepare yourself for what you dream about? Or will you sit where you are and say it should come to pass on its own without me working for it? You have the choice to make it happen or not.

Dreams

The dreams you have as a child
Are not always meant to come to pass
Some of them will come true
But your life will be transformed.

You think you will do many things
Imagining things that bring forth dreams
And not considering what you have
Or your life now as an adult.

So many things I wanted to be
But my life path has been different
I went down a stranger road
Than the one I had imagined.

However, some dreams do come true
And you find your life made whole
They may be unexpected
But you can make a happy life.

Take your ideas and see what happens
Which ones you can bring forth
They will mark your way in life
And complete you totally.

Finding Yourself

 

Finding yourself is a topic that could go on forever, but today I want to bring a few things to your attention. When I moved to Scotland I had no memory of the past. Everything was different and I knew I needed to find myself. But how to go about it was not immediately clear.

One of the things I did was to change my name. I wanted one where the meaning of it connected to God. Anika means a gift of God’s favour and Bathia is daughter of God. This gave me a link to someone/something bigger than myself and brought me peace.

I’m not saying that you need to change your name to find yourself. It was my pathway in life but may not be yours and that’s OK. Nobody follows another’s path in life. Though you may have the same experiences as someone else, you will both respond to them differently because of different experiences in the past.

Finding myself from that blankness has taken 9 years. And there have been people that have come and gone in that time. And some that have been in my life over that whole period. You know what? That’s OK, too.

I have discovered that my passion is to create digital intuitive artwork for others. After Christmas I was attempting to do a piece and it just simply wasn’t working, or satisfying me so I changed it. And the client is totally happy with what I produced.

When you discover yourself and your passion, developing your talents and gifts is a wonderful way to express our purpose in the world. We are not here to just please ourselves but to be a blessing to others.

Have you found your passion yet or are you still on the journey to find yourself? I would love to hear from you. The journey will continue until death but knowing who you are, what you are here for and following that to bless others is what we are made for. We are all unique and finding yourself can be quite a challenge.

Confidence is a great thing

Confidence is a great thing.  I love the fact that I have friends and family that encourage me and cheer me on. Positive words drive me to achieve my best and do what other people believe I can do. Sometimes without such support from others I feel as though I’m not capable enough or good enough to do things on my own – I’m not confident enough in myself.

Believing in yourself is important. Knowing your own potential is, too. Sometimes however, you need others to help you understand the talents and gifts that you have. It’s not that you don’t have such talents, but sometimes you lack confidence in your ability, or just feel you’re not good enough to do whatever it is you want to do.

Self belief is an important thing. I’m not saying you should be overly proud of your accomplishments or even be falsely humble in them. Believing you are capable and able to do something that you actually can do is one of the most important things in life.

Your gifts, talents and passion were all given to you for a reason. You were blessed in a unique way that nobody else in the world has been and what you do is done in a different way to anyone else.

However, you do not need anyone to validate who you are and what you do. I began to realise this as I stepped into my passion and realised confidence was the ingredient I was missing. I was looking for external validation to tell me if something I did was OK or not.

Then I wondered: why could I not be my own cheerleader ? Why could I not tell myself I have done a good job and be proud of my accomplishments, and the talents and abilities God has given me ? He made me this way and I should be able to believe I can do what He wishes.

So where are you in your journey in life ? Can you tell yourself you have done well ? Or do you need external validation ? You are made for a special reason and you need to discover what it is and live it out with confidence in yourself.

Find out who you are and your purpose in life and live in your own authenticity. If you are real, people will be drawn to you. And cheering yourself on in life and not expecting others to validate your talents and abilities is the best thing you could ever do.

Don’t live your life expecting and waiting for others to validate your mission. You are unique, just as everyone else in the world is.